Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION:Typed English poem in black font against a white background. Transcript is provided to the right of the image.
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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Education can be a form of alienation, and one’s claims to authorship are engulfed in the scepticism arising from the social categories in which we are embedded.
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THEME5_2
WEEK 04
TREASURE CHEST
ARTIST LAVENDER HIPPO
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The image has a passport size photograph of a woman with the eyes scratched out with a pen. There is a yellow and green ribbon and two origami ducks, one big and brown and another small and yellow.
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
Our own perception is necessarily scribbled out by the pens of official identification. And what is the difference between a ribbon of achievement and a pair of paper birds unless we choose to attribute differing values to them?
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THEME5_3
WEEK 05
BLACKJACK WITH LABELS
ARTIST LOKI
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The image shows a person’s hand holding a number of cards with different pictures on them. The first card shows two pictures. One is of a woman with an orange top and purple hair with a circle of flowers round her head and the second one is a black and white picture of a woman kneeling down with a flower in the place of her head. The pictures and the text on the rest of the cards are not clear.
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DESCRIPTION: The image shows all 16 cards laid out. The description of each card is available in the dropdown to the right.
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Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION: The image shows all the 16 cards laid down and with 1st, 4th, 6th, 8th, 9th, 14th and 15th cards turned over.
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SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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Labels can sometimes be essentializing, but can we also think of labels as giving us a trajectory, an escape to move beyond the officiality that risks erasing our personhood? Can these labels possibly help us see that we are more than what we are marked out to be?
THEME5_4
WEEK 05
COUNTING PRIVILEGES
ARTIST STREET STORE DOLLS
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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LISTEN TO THIS LETTER
00:00 / 00:56
Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION: Typed English poem - “Counting Privileges” - in black font against a white background. Transcript and recording of the poem is provided to the right of the image.
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SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The neat patterns of our identity cards are a striking contrast to the messy matrices through which the emotional bonds around our identities are formed.
THEME5_5
WEEK 06
EYES SPEAK
ARTIST LOKI
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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LISTEN TO THIS SONG
00:00 / 03:10
DESCRIPTION: The image shows an eye with a green cornea and a QR code in the centre of it.
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From the artist’s note:
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“What did the dolphin say to the baby? What did the sofa say to the bottle of water? What did the video camera say to the NAC Mac? What did the mirror say to the underwear? What did the eyes say to the world?
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Many a time, what we see is so much more than what it appears and most of the time we take it for whatever we just see or whatever we want to see. The eyes play an important role in helping form opinions, judgments and intuition. What would it be to embody the eyes that help us enter the world and make sense of it? What would they say? Would they say anything at all?”
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SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The eyes have been accorded the privileged position of being gateways to the world and to determine the positions of various categories of people in our lives. And yet, what of the perspective of the eyes?
THEME5_6
WEEK 06
NO LONGER DRIFTING
ARTIST STREET STORE DOLLS
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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LISTEN TO THIS LETTER
00:00 / 02:03
Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION:Typed English poem - “No longer drifting” - in black font against a white background. Transcript and recording of the poem is provided to the right of the image.
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SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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Our attempts to anchor our identities and our place in the world...official forms of pinning down selfhood can provide scripts for us to be seen and to see ourselves but they come at a price.
THEME5_7
WEEK 07
THE ROOTS THAT HOLD US
ARTIST LOKI
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The image shows the face of a woman with a bindi and her hair tied into a bun. She does not have any facial feature such as eyes, nose or mouth. In the background are images of networks of branches.
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DESCRIPTION: The image is of a sari that is tightly folded and tied with a rope.
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From the artist’s note:
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“What is in the name?
I wonder why we carry the names of our fathers as our last name when it is the women who actually hold our families together?
They ensure heirlooms are passed on, recipes are practiced and customs are followed, even for and on behalf of the male members of their family.
They are the seeds and also the roots that hold us together in the common ground called family.
Why are they fine with the men being the face of their love and effort?
Why doesn’t their own name shine in all the forms, addresses, applications, certificates, awards and announcements?
In memory of my paternal grandmother. If she were here, I would have a story for my last name, a different life and a lot more.”
DESCRIPTION: The image is a list of the following names written one below the other in sketch pen: Shridhar Sundaram Iyer, Subramaniam Chandrashekhar, MD Sunitha, Seher Noor Mehra, Suneeth Basavareddy Kasaaki, Pinky Omprakash Jain, Jaidrath Zaveri, Puneeth Rajkumar, Sumanth M Rao, Vinyana Rao, Saraswathi Anand, Raaga A Swaminathan. Next to the names, the following text is written spelling is new, Father’s name too long, can't afford to have sur/family name, Nuclear (arrow) just dad. And below the names, the following text is written : North Indian, Chopra or Gandhi, common, long not cool, not-big sounding, young name
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SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The “official” markers of our identities conceal the echelons of power in which we are embedded and decide which forms of procreation are more entitled to be remembered than others.
THEME5_8
WEEK 07
A ROSE
ARTIST LAVENDER HIPPO
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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LISTEN TO THIS LETTER
00:00 / 01:40
DESCRIPTION: An image with a pink tinge of a handwritten note in black ink on a white background which is transcribed below. The recording is provided to the right of the image.
Excerpt from the artist’s note:
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“What’s in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.
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My name was supposed to be something else. You see, they were expecting a son but unfortunately they had a daughter and they named her something. They could have named her anything and it would have meant the same thing.
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This girl grew up not caring for her name or surname. She grew up and started creating an identity for herself and she realised that her identity was now attached to her name whether she intended to or not.
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She made something for herself – Something Very Important.
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How can my name not be important when I feel such joy when it is uttered by my lover in a crowded room and suddenly I feel seen. When a dear friend describes me to someone – how can I not fall in love with my own name? The way a tongue twists and sounds come out in order for my name to be said the way it must – the way I like and prefer it. I am in love with myself. What’s in a name, you ask? Everything – in its own pockets of time.”
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The act of naming could itself be seen as one of the fundamental acts of curtailment of our potential and possibilities. Our names precede us and we have little claim over their infliction onto us. And yet, names invariably go through a process of reclamation until we make them a part of our own being that reflect who we are and who we wish to become.
DESCRIPTION: The image is of a painting titled - ‘Static-Dynamic Gradations, by Paul Klee, 1923’ - which is a grid of coloured squares painted with watercolours. The squares in the centre of the painting are of bright vivid colours (brown, green, orange, white and blue) and the squares that border the centre are darker shades ( dark brown, grey and black).
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DESCRIPTION:The poem titled - The Shades of Ours Names’ - is written in black font against a white background and recording is provided to the right.
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Excerpt from the artist’s note:
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“
Week 7: See-Saw
2nd Nov
Dear Loki,
The prompt brought forth a lot of feelings that I have around my first and last names that reflect much larger social causes. I have tried to keep the writing personal and weave the story of my family and their names.
After I had done the prompt as an exercise, I kept thinking about a Paul Klee painting, called ‘Static Dynamic Gradation’ (1923), with little coloured squares clustered together, like how people with same/similar names cluster together. I wrote this poem with that painting in mind. Each little paragraph has been written as a square on its own (with its own color/shade) but telling a story together.
warm regards,
Z.”
LISTEN TO THIS LETTER
00:00 / 00:52
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The need for names to have meanings beyond merely locating us in the world…
THEME5_10
WEEK 07
RANDOM NAMES AT A RAILWAY STATION
ARTIST STREET STORE DOLLS
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION:Typed English poem - “Random names at a railway station” - in black font against a white background. Transcript of the poem is provided to the right of the image.
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SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The resistance to naming is a kind of resistance to the power of the state and a reverence to all those who have resisted before us.
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THEME5_11
WEEK O7
PURE CHANCE
ARTIST MISFIT MEDUSA
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The video shows a small cup of water into which a person is diluting paints of different colours using a paintbrush. Finally, the entire coloured water is thrown into a toilet bowl and we hear the sound of the toilet flush
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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We are the merges of many shades of histories, loves, strifes, hopes and unions that have preceded us...but what use are these assemblages to the passage of time, to the broader frames of reference that engender us. As harsh as it may seem, our beings and the lineages before us are of mere contingent significance.
THEME5_12
WEEK O9
CARDS OF BELONGING
ARTIST GULLA
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: There is an image of the eye with a QR code across it and pieces of the QR code are disintegrating to reveal the eye.
Excerpt from theartist's note:
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"Dear partner,
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The use of identity cards to get through registration purposes has begun to scare me. Originally, I think they were meant to provide for us a sense of belonging. But I can’t help but feel in danger every time someone asks to link my Aadhar card, my passport, my driving license. I don’t know what they might do with that data…
Gulla,
11.11. 21
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P.S. sending you two responses together cuz I couldn’t send the last week’s"
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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Once the panels of the panoptic gaze are removed one by one, the imprisoned centre of seeing gradually begins to emerge.
THEME5_13
WEEK O9
PROVE YOUR ...
ARTIST LAVENDER HIPPO
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The image comprises a sheet of paper, the top is painted blue and the bottom is pink. On the top of the paper is written ‘Prove your existence’. Below that, on the left, is written ‘Prove your Dalitness’ and on the right is written ‘Prove your Indianness’. Below that is written ‘Birth certificate?’, ‘Age’ and ‘Dalit certificate’. At the bottom of the page are three images in black of girls, one wearing a shirt and a pinafore, a second wearing a kurta and salwar with an identity card round her neck and a third of a woman with a shirt, pants and a handbag. Above the first image is written ‘Get all your certificates for your application for the Board exams’. Above the second is written ‘What makes you Indian? The literature? The architecture? The language?’ and above the third is written ‘What?’
LISTEN TO THIS LETTER
00:00 / 02:16
Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION: Handwritten text in white ink against a black background. Transcript and recording is provided to the right of the image.
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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While all of us are objectified by official systems of identification, the processes of objectification and the weight of proving one’s worth to the state are not evenly distributed.
THEME5_14
WEEK O9
"I" OF COLOURS AND LINES
ARTIST MORTY SMITH
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The image comprises multiple colours (blue, pink, green, purple) blending into each other and what look like black jellyfish with black tentacles reaching into the collage of colours.
Excerpt from theartist's note:
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“Dear Gulla, I want to say that I feel very uncomfortable with my identity. I always had difficulty in liking myself. When I say identity I mean all aspects that make me into who I am. There is always a longing for a “better me”. I feel angry/helpless/overwhelmed when I look at myself in the mirror for a long time. I have been consciously unlearning all the toxic conditioning of constant negative talk but there is a long way to go. Lot of times I feel that the things I hold on to as my identity doesn’t matter at all. I find it obscure.
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In the artistic response I expressed my thoughts and feelings around my “I”dentity through colours and lines.”
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The dots and grids that often make up official identities dissolve into the ocean of emotions and tensions that characterize lived identities.
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THEME5_15
WEEK O9
TEAR IT UP
ARTIST JEISI AMAWASA
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION: The image is of a page that is folded three times to form five strips. There is a different sentence written on each strip as follows: I am not a number. I am blood and bone. I am last week’s movie night. And the grass that once met my toes. I am my father’s eyes, my mom maybe not. I am the way I folded this page.
Excerpt from theartist's note:
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“Hello from “Jeisi”
[What’s in a name?]
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I’m not really sure, but
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[What’s in a number?]
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Today it seems like possibly everything. A birth date, short of a birth time that could have led to an astral chart and even a kundli. But I digress. In this “age of data”, what are we? Facts? Figures? Emotional datapoints that tell Netflix what romcom we’ll stream next?
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Or are we so much more?
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Find out what I think I am with the accordion poem to be kept a secret. If you work at Netflix, TEAR IT UP.
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Love,
“Jeisi” “
SEE-SAW REFLECTIONS
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The multiple layers of our identity and its bureaucratization that are essential to keep systems going...and the ways in which these systems interpellate our recognition to ensure their own survival…
THEME5_16
WEEK O9
काग़ज़ | KAAGHAZ | PAPER
ARTIST KHWABIDA
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
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DESCRIPTION:Handwritten Hindustani poem in blue ink against a orange background. Pencil drawings of paper and an envelope on the right side. Transcript and recording is provided to the right of the image.
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Official documentation indicates the inadequacy of our existence, indicating the imperative placed on us to always have to prove who we really are.
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WEEK O9
I TO i
ARTIST MISFIT MEDUSA
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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DESCRIPTION:The image shows a cream paper burnt at the edges with dots and dashes in various colours ( blue, purple, pink, green and yellow) representing morse code. The following words are pasted at different places on the image: I made, I had, I would. I felt, I didn’t.
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Excerpt from theartist's note:
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“Dear L,
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This week’s prompt was very humbling. We speak of being more than just labels or assumptions but to a bigger system, our identity will always be withheld down to numbers – bits and bytes, if you will.
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My idea for this artistic response stems from how i felt as i lay down with all my identification papers pasted on me. It felt like a journey to travel from the I to the i.
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I hope to capture how irrelevant we are in the bigger scope of things, the colours we carry, in the end, are still just data waiting to be purged from memory – from life – a little depressing, I know. But I think it also stands as a testament to how much more we can be. Our problems are miniscule compared to this scale of deep time.”
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Love,
Misfit Medusa”
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It is ironic that the body, in all its thickness and messiness, is so fundamental to our existence and yet to ensure embodied security we have to succumb to being reduced to abstract symbolism in order to be seen by the state.
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WEEK O9
PORTALS
ARTIST Z
ARTISTIC RESPONSE
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Frequently asked questions
Week 1
Hi Jessi Amawasa,
Have you thought about body wash? What a weird invention, right? Someone looked at the shampoo bottle and thought what if I put it on my entire body. But of course, they were scared of uncontrollable body hair and had to come up with something entirely different.
If you have to find a product that clearly distinguishes between the upper and lower middle class, body wash would be that product. Cars used to be that product before, the ones that segregated the middle classes. Now even the lower strata have cars for either their business or help them earn money as transport providers. Being one of 3 siblings in a lower-middle-class home meant all the three had to share the same soap till it got over and we got a new one. Usually, the soap stays for 15 days depending on the brand. The long-lasting one as televised and promised was the lifebuoy soaps that lasted a month.
The first time I encountered body wash was in a hotel room in Chennai. Tired from the journey I hit the bed and woke up to get to an event venue. I don't travel much so I tend to forget things, I had packed my toothbrush and everything but forgot the soap. I step into the bathroom to find these weird two bottles of liquid. I thought they were the same thing and maybe they kept two bottles for two days of the stay I had booked for. So the first day, I had used the shampoo to bathe myself, and only the next day I figured out that it was body wash.
As I was following last week's warm-up exercise(of finding things in my house), my hand stumbled on a bottle of body wash that I had kept from a recent hospital visit. It is so funny that this small bottle of body wash is asked to wash the dirt of two people(patient+attender). I went out and brought a sop to use in the hospital. Since my wife didn't use the body wash either, she packed it home, because she paid for it. That's something my mom does in restaurants, carries the Peppermint Coated Fennel Saunf in tissues. And just like the Saunf in your mouth, you never know how much body wash is too much body wash. So I always end up using lesser, always thinking that anything which washes my body should come for more than 15 days.
I don't know about you, but I have always imagined the lives of rich people and what would it look like. Would it be worlds away? Would it be more bright, since lower-middle-class homes can rarely see the horizon and so the sun rarely finds the need to visit them? My wife on the other hand comes from a family that wants to call itself middle class for the sake of humility but is not. Since my family has come a long way from sharing soaps and towels, I am beginning to understand body wash. Finally figured how much is good enough. Yet, there is this unexplainable guilt of spending too much money that could be fixed with a Lifeboy Soap.
Does this make any sense?
DESCRIPTION:Typed English lyrics - “Portal” - in black font against a white background. Transcript and the song is to the right of the image.
Excerpt from theartist's note:
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Week 9: See- Saw
20th Nov
Dear Loki,
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The prompt for week 9 brought up several mixed up and tangled feelings – gratitude, pride, belonging, fear, frustration, distrust. This piece is an attempt at expressing all of this.
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warm regards,
Z “
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Arbitrary and preassigned modes of belonging can be portals to ponderings on who they make us and who we would like to be. To make modes of belonging the objects of our reflection is sometimes the best that we can do to break out of their tendencies to assign and confine us to specific positions.
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